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• 12/02/2008 @ 19:26 Wolfie said

  

  Dear christina, welcome to Big White Wall. There are some big things going on for you at the moment.... can you talk about them?

  Love W

• 15/02/2008 @ 09:49 roze said

  

  Hey - sounds like someone just broke your heart - friend or relationship?

• 27/02/2008 @ 03:46 yello said

  

  i'm working on convincing myself that taking the effort to act like she cares, is caring in some twisted way.
  you are where i know i will be in a few months.
  you seem to know who you are. hold strong.

• 06/03/2008 @ 01:08 christina34217 said

  

  yeah I am trying to let it all out by using this forum and others....I am still so hurt...there's a hole n my heart so big...I left a 3 year relationship to be with her. I am bisexual, and have 3 kids. I feel like she just shit on me and my dreams for our future. I may forgive her but I will never forget...

• 06/03/2008 @ 02:38 yello said

  

  if i've learned anything about love and life and relationships.... it's that they don't stay, they are so fluid. what's nice is, we always have the choice to leave our lover... if ever we felt the need- if ever we are suffocating or needing to get out. what's crappy is they have the same choice- that for whatever reason they can end things as quickly as you can.
  which means that however stable a relationship feels or seems, every day might be the last day for love or kisses or sex... which makes everything feel so shakey and uncertain. because everything is shakey and uncertain in living with another's heart.

  gosh that sounds pretty pretentious and overly poetic. sorry. dang.

  maybe i'm nuts to think that every kiss might be the last. she has no reason to end things with me, but we never need a reason. want is enough. to want things to end is enough.
  brutal.

• 06/03/2008 @ 04:20 christina34217 said

  

  but you are right....things just finish in a blink of an eye. and there you are standing with your mouth open like " i can't believe that just happened"....i really still feel like that...i am strong, but i still feel like now it's pointless to have dreams about us for the future....maybe there are some people who are just not meant to be with someone else.

• 06/03/2008 @ 09:27 Wolfie said

  

  Hi yello, what great words and a sobering way to look at relationships - 'want is enough' - it certainly is. great feedback. Wx

• 06/03/2008 @ 13:33 christina34217 said

  

  want IS enough, but then when does wanting turn into a lifetime of loneliness?