i want my life back

ionlywant2

Brick created on 20/02/2008 @ 06:21

Your brick story

struggling to end the addiction!!!!
thought this would never happen to me,
I was~
happily married
fun
loved
a better mommy
I am~
divorcing :(
sucky
ignored
still trying to be a good mommy
Everything looks pretty on the outside the perfect house, cute happy kids, money, the life that I wish I really had. But if only you really knew what was happening on the inside, addiction, abusive relationship, lies, infidelity, the list is long. I blame myself although his lies and infidelity came first. I have the addiction and I want it to stop!!! I dont want to miss anymore than I already have. Yes I have physically been "there" but I havent emotionally been there not for my kids, my family, my friends, not for anything. I miss my family, I miss having real fun, I miss my life, I miss ME!!!

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20/02/2008 @ 12:41 Wolfie said

Hi ionlywant2, I think you are new around here, welcome to Big White Wall. Wow, your brick says so much, there is so much going on for you right now. Have you made the decision to stop the drugs? Have you sought help?
Love Wolfie
05/03/2008 @ 11:37 ionlywant2 said

i have tried. i think i have to move from my environment.
05/03/2008 @ 13:02 Wolfie said

perhaps you do. can you reach out to someone and seek help? see if they can offer you and your children a safe environment while you sort yourself out? Your family? A friend? Wx