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• 11/02/2008 @ 08:01 roze said

  

  Devoted - welcome to Big White Wall. I notice your tags - i have a kid - it can be hard work. WHat is doing well or less well about for you?

• 16/02/2008 @ 21:29 younger said

  

  Me too - I have kids - don't get me on to how tiring they can be.... what is it about yours that get to you?

• 17/03/2008 @ 01:21 devoted said

  

  Hello there. Thanks for replying...for some reason I didnt see that you had. Some hard questions to answer... The easy answer is that 'not doing well' means getting angry. But what is about him that gets to me? I want to take a shortcut and tell you he makes me angry sometimes because he is autistic. But that is not fair to him and not very truthful. I get angry because I feel like I am not coping. He exposes my shortcomings as a parent and for some reason that turns into anger. I think it is about loss of control, somehow. Although I certainly dont have control of my other child and he doesnt make me lose my temper. I try not to make comparisons like that, and do not do so in a negative way, I am just trying to explain myself.
  

• 17/03/2008 @ 17:19 roze said

  

  I understand that - my nephew is autistic and sometimes - because he has different ways of communicating - his behaviour (that feels perfectly normal to him) can be very frustrating. Do you have lots of support around you to give you some breaks?

• 16/04/2008 @ 07:06 devoted said

  

  Thanks roze for your reply. I do have a lot of support and in many respects am very fortunate. But sometimes I still feel pretty crazy! The wall is good place to put that crazy out there without those around me worrying...

• 17/04/2008 @ 11:16 roze said

  

  It is good to vent the crazy somewhere safe. It is good that you have a lot of support and yet sometimes caring for children can be very exhausting. I have just become pretty much a lone mum and it is one hell of a lot of work and i hate myself when i blow up at my child - usually over silly things like not getting her shoes on in time for school. Hugs roze