some days i feel like i could go back to my catholic roots, cradled in the arms of blind faith. it would be so easy. but then i realize that there's a chance god doesn't forgive those who can't forgive themselves for what they've done. how does everything suddenly stop and shift? is forgiveness really that attainable? am i just too ignorant to notice it standing around, waiting for me to say "hi, come on in!"? i know in me there is great potential for good things. but it's pushed through with the wrong motivation.... god savce my soul.