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• 10/10/2008 @ 14:39 roze said

  

  It is not always easy to be thankful when you are feeling low - and somehow we learn that hiding is the best way of dealing with it - a mixture of self protection and protecting others from us i guess. What are you mostly thinking about in these days when you are feeling low?

• 10/10/2008 @ 22:08 blueangel said

  

  I have been thinking about problems at work and what they are thinking / saying about me being off sick, what they are going to be like when I go back in on Monday, what I'm going to say if they say x y or z and winding myself up! As I've said before I'm good at doing that.

  Also been worrying about missing nephew and his father, who is really down. Also feeling bad for my niece and sister in law, haven't been around much for them, as been feeling low and very tired.

  Have realised that I'm actually very lonely (I live on my own and am single) and that I would like to do something about that - just have to get out there and do something! Which is quite scary - don't have great self esteem.

  Have also discovered that I need to find a way of relieving stress/anxiety, so have found some herbal tablets, been visiting here and am looking into yoga classes.

  So while it's been a really difficult and emotional week - at the moment (positive mood!) I've discovered a lot and am taking steps to change it, that includes looking for a new job.

  On the whole, I'd really like someone to come along with their magic wand and make all the crappy stuff go away - just for a while would be good.

  Wow - sorry, written loads - been thinking lots.

  Thanks for the support - the BWW and the people on it are helping me to stay sane.

• 12/10/2008 @ 02:53 LoquaciousRJ said

  

  aww, i know what that's like. sometimes even if you try to stay positive and stuff you always end up sad and negative. well it's like that. it's always like that. everyone has their highs and lows. it's hard when there's so much going on. but hiding won't solve anything, everyone has to face reality. i wish too sometimes that such a magic wand existed. but just so you know, you're not going through this alone, and i care for you. it will get better soon. it really will. take care :D

  love of love and hugs,

  RJ

• 14/10/2008 @ 11:54 roze said

  

  How has it gone being back at work blueangel? Been thinking of you, rxx

• 14/10/2008 @ 20:14 blueangel said

  

  Thanks for thinking of me! It's really nice to know that people care.

  Work has been difficult, but better than expected. Currently, I'm not being spoken to unless it's work related! That's fine with me, as I was more worried that they would accuse me of skiving etc.

  It's also confirmed that work, isn't my only problem, so now I can move forward and try and sort the rest out!!

• 19/10/2008 @ 06:11 roze said

  

  I am glad that work is not as judgmental as you had perhaps feared. You have a lot going on in your life and sometimes it can all just feel very overwhelming. Rxx

• 20/10/2008 @ 13:25 blueangel said

  

  Thanks roze,

  Overwhelming is right! I think that perhaps I'm too judgemental of myself at times. However the antidrepessants from the doc are starting to work - glad I caved on that and I had a weekend away which was good fun. Definitely veering towards the more positive!

  Thanks for the support. Blueangelxx