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Aleena
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Brick created on 06/10/2008 @ 14:59

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I've always hid what i've been feeling from everyone.. i hide behind fake smiles... i hide behind fake happiness... so that people dont know that im not happy..the only person who can see through the fakeness is the one who made me unhappy...the one who made me cry....

its all so fucking depressing!!!!

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  • 07/10/2008 @ 04:51 roze said
    roze

    I notice your tag invisible and see on this brick that that is what you are feeling - unseen for the whole of you. And that the one person who could see that let you down in some way? What is it that you are feeling unhappy about? Love roze

  • 07/10/2008 @ 12:13 ant said
    ant

    Hey Aleena,

    One thing that I have learnt from BWW is this.

    I used to be so stubborn that I wouldn't talk to people I knew about how badly I was feeling inside - at times I really hated myself.

    But by learning to talk about my feelings here and getting used to using words - I found that I could start doing this is my real life too. It is something that we can learn to do with a bit of practice. Keep making your bricks and doing what you need to express here on BWW and hopefully it will end up in being a positive experience in real life just like it has for me.

    antx

  • 07/10/2008 @ 14:19 Aleena said
    Aleena

    roze..ive just been going through a really rough time with my boyfriend...and ive been miserable...he'z the only one who could see behind my fakeness and would ask whats wrong..now he'z the reason that im miserable.. so no one even asks..

    ant...i can see you know what its like... i just cant bring myself to share my problems with people i know...not even my closest friends... even though im always there to listen to their problems and help them out or just be there for them...but i feel that if i am the one sharing no one would really compare and get sick of me complaining... it just gets so hard... being here on bww is the first time ive opened up at all.. its easier here...did it really help u in real life as well?.. i feel that sometimes i just need to know that its ok to talk about yourself at times...

  • 08/10/2008 @ 14:40 roze said
    roze

    It is vital that you talk about yourself - i guess we sometimes expect those we love to be able to read our minds - well life has taught me otherwise. As has making assumptions about those i love are feeling and thinking. I have found over the last couple of years that talking about what i felt has strengthened many of my relationships. And now it feels strange if i don't. Rx

  • 08/10/2008 @ 17:26 Aleena said
    Aleena

    i think im a far way off from opening up to people right now... bww is a pretty big step for me..=)

  • 08/10/2008 @ 19:28 ant said
    ant

    Well just take it in little steps - I joined back in a few months - I didn't join to change my life - I knew I was just feel floppy in the way I was relating to the world. BWW is a great place just to be safe while we work our stuff through and support others. I found out about being here from a friend of mine and noticed that she seemed to be less "blocked up" Yes it has helped me in real life. I notice how other people are more often expressing themselves without getting tied up in the big stuff - simply saying they are having a bad day - enables me to say that also. I might not have noticed it before - but we all have our own ways. ant xx (Remember ants run back underground in bad weather and only come out to work? - that's why it suits me)

  • 09/10/2008 @ 06:44 roze said
    roze

    Take it just as gently as you feel works for you Aleena. I think that many of us found ourselves walking with a little trepidation at first. Take care, Rx

  • 09/10/2008 @ 15:12 Aleena said
    Aleena

    thank you ant and roze..you people give me hope..

  • 10/10/2008 @ 14:23 roze said
    roze

    Hope is the greatest encouragement to trying to make some changes. And there is support here too for talking about how it all goes.

  • 10/10/2008 @ 14:50 Aleena said
    Aleena

    thank you =)

  • 14/10/2008 @ 11:56 UMxx said
    UMxx

    Hey Aleena, How are you feeling inside? You okay? UM xxx

  • 16/10/2008 @ 18:24 Aleena said
    Aleena

    Hi UM. I am feeling alot better now than i was before. Thank you for caring =)

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