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• 29/09/2008 @ 20:20 Wolfie said

  

  oooh, i am so with you - sometimes it all just seems too much - I find it happens to me when I feel overwhelmed - when does it happen for you? Wx PS: your reply will be anonymous.

• 29/09/2008 @ 20:23 harmony said

  

  Love the colour of the font on this brick but cannot see the words because its pink on a browny colour. What does it say, Anon?

  harmony X

• 29/09/2008 @ 20:30 Anonymous said

  

  It just happens-I think in my head I'm going to get on with it but then I just don't have the energy or inclination to do anything more than the bare essentials. I used to be very full of energy and get up n go-but now I have the thoughts but end up slobbing around, watching tv, coming online, falling asleep. I do feel my physical strength declining rapidly and know it's a vicious circle.
  It just suddenly happened-busy bee one day, flat the next and that's how it's been for over a month now. It's from one extreme to the other!!
  Maybe I will pick up soon. My mood seems more even and less erratic-I'm hoping xx
  

• 29/09/2008 @ 20:40 Wolfie said

  

  Firstly, for harmony, the words on the brick: 'Get out of your lazy bed and get on with what you supposed to be doing. you have a job to do so do it.'

  Anonymous, is there anything else that has changed for you over this time? or is your lack of motivation the only big change you have found? Wx

• 29/09/2008 @ 22:33 Anonymous said

  

  Sorry that it's not very clear.
  I have recently changed my medication so that's the answer-I didn't make that connection before.
  They have slowed me down mentally which is good (racing, negative and guilty thoughts)and I thought I was just flopping physically because I was no longer full of nervous energy. Now I am just very lethargic, not interested-I do struggle to do the basics.Whereas before I was doing everything at once. I do go and visit a friend more often but when I am home I barely do anything.
  In some ways it's good that I'm relaxing but I am quite houseproud and organized-this has gone out the window.I think my tablets have dulled my thought process.So things still trouble my mind only quieter and weaker.
  I will have to bring this up with my Doctor at my next appointment. I do feel a bit in limbo.
  I have changed my medication 3 times recently and these are the best at calming me down. I have tried several others on and off over the years but they haven't worked well. I know pills aren't the long term answer. But it's an improvement on how I was behaving and thinking. I should give myself a break.xxx

• 30/09/2008 @ 07:47 Wolfie said

  

  Really pleased that you have made the connection - so it is not 'your fault'. Have you been able to share your negative and guilty thoughts before? Have you had any counselling or therapy? Wx

• 30/09/2008 @ 08:10 Anonymous said

  

  Hello Wolfie-your right, it's not my fault,it's just 'me' in need of recuperation.
  I try to talk about 'issues' but never really get across all the bad or bizarre thoughts-well I do have one friend but she lives far away, works odd shifts and has a hectic life herself. She is very caring and supportive when I get the chance to speak to her but it's only ever once in 3 months maybe-I need counselling. I was insisitant that I got the right medication 1st-which was a battle.This is better than how I was without medication so I need to look on the plus side and be thankful that I am 'dulled' and calmer-I keep forgetting that.
  xx

• 30/09/2008 @ 08:12 Anonymous said

  

  I mean I'm more capable now of discussing my issues than say 6 months ago. Anon x
  And I should not feel guilty about taking time out to mellow.xx

• 30/09/2008 @ 08:22 Wolfie said

  

  Mellow is good as is talking about issues - and if you want to talk here, go ahead - either on a brick or start a talkabout ... big hug. Wx