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• 25/09/2008 @ 20:10 roze said

  

  Hello freckles, I think you may be new here - welcome. Can you say some more about what feels like one heap of confusion? Thinking of you, hugs roze

• 25/09/2008 @ 20:22 freckles said

  

  Thank you roze-it's me the anonymous stuff it brick and 'I don't know how I feel' brick-had to change my name as it was an obvious link to me.I try and understand how I feel and I can't think-it gets foggy in my head-I also worry that people on here may need support and I'm moaning away.Then when I do think of what bothers me I can't believe I think that way and it all seems so trivial. I do find it hard to talk-I am waiting to see a counsellor for an assessment but don't know what to say to them-if I can say stuff. I don't quite know what I feel just that it's not great or happy or positive-well I must feel all the opposites of these then!!I don't like to admit I feel low, bothered and not coping!!!
  Should I just put it all on a brick or ramble to someone who has been kind enought o respond to a brick!!I have checked he website out but I seem to have a whole lot of little issues not big ones.

• 25/09/2008 @ 20:28 roze said

  

  You have your issues - they are not little - and the stuff we are experiencing is not comparative. I see your bricks as a wish to speak and a certain hesitancy to do so. Perhaps you are not used to having space to say what is going on for you or believing that anyone will listen. I am clear that i responded to your bricks because i care that you have stuff going on. I may not respond much more this evening as i have guests but i would like to continue talking with you. Rxx

• 25/09/2008 @ 20:34 freckles said

  

  I'm going for it on the anonymous brick-everything!!Thank you for the encouragement to do it-that it's OK.
  It may take a while so you have a grand time with your guests.
  Thank you again-it means a lot to me xx

• 25/09/2008 @ 20:36 roze said

  

  Good for you! Go for it. I will be talking with you again really soon. Rxx

• 28/09/2008 @ 19:33 blueangel said

  

  Hi Freckles,
  It's so good to see you here, any issues you want to mention are worthwhile, so don't be afraid of that, also your problems aren't trivial, if it's a problem then it's not trivial.

  I'm working on the theory, that people are here to listen to me and then when I'm needed I'll listen to them.

  Liking your other bricks - you really seem to be looking forward and wanting to get life on track for you, which is brilliant! As Roze says Go for it! maybe I'll get going too!

  Blueangel xxx

• 28/09/2008 @ 20:03 freckles said

  

  I know ,it's really bizarre how much more positive I feel already and be able to get over little things that would have bugged me all day. I think just being able to write how I feel without interruptions or raised eyebrows helps.Then getting positive feedback and understanding is tremendous. I too hope I can return the support. It still seems too good to be true and baffling but I'm not letting it stop me enjoying how I feel right now. Well I know my tablets are helping as well. I don't feel so alone in how I feel-I'm sure all my family/friends pretend they OK. Thank you all for your kind words xx
  

• 29/09/2008 @ 18:42 silentwarrior said

  

  sound just like me a while back, was so confused and had no idea of what i was feeling.

  it does get better and never underestimate the power of a brick!!

  
  im glad you no longer feel alone and long live the posative feelings

• 29/09/2008 @ 19:11 blueangel said

  

  It's a good place for getting things out of the system, I keep a diary too and that helps, but I like it here as it's creative and you get advice / support! Glad you are feeling more positive - hope it continues! xx

• 29/09/2008 @ 19:38 freckles said

  

  Hey silentwarrior and blueangel, thanks for your support-I have done more bricks(anonymously) to vent my frustrations and they really do help. I'm no longer stewing over stuff and kicking myself for daft reasons. I'm finding I'm able to deal with other people so much better and not getting anxious. I did think it has all gone horribly wrong earlier but I made a brick-played on the wii and found the dark, negative thoughts went.I was in a much better frame of mind to then focus on cooking tea at a reasonable hour-and remembering to do myself something(I'm veggie), cope with a visitor during tea time and then clear the kitchen. I'm now back in my PJ's and I WILL get an early night. This may not sound like a great achievement to anybody else but for me to be chilled out with my life at 8.30pm is near enough a miracle. Plus my son is having a verbal tantrum at his computer game which typically gets me on edge and prickly.
  I dare not write a diary in case anyone found it-I think I will stick to my bricks!!-my handwriting is awful anyway and I would then really stress at how bad it is.
  If it wasn't for you all responding to my bricks and comments I know I wouldn't be thinking and then in turn feeling the way I do.
  Everybody on here should be very proud of themselves.
  Thank you all, Freckles xxxxxxxx

• 29/09/2008 @ 19:41 harmony said

  

  And you should be very proud of you Freckles!!

  Love Harmony

• 29/09/2008 @ 19:58 freckles said

  

  Why is it about the BWW -why can't we find this support in our immediate circle of friends and family-most people I know are having really tough times yet the conversations of support don't make an impact as they do on here.
  Why is it making a difference?? Why is it working?
  Why am I questioning it!?
  xxx
  I'm proud that I took the decision to come on here and trust in everyone. That's a very difficult thing to do. I suppose you have all done that as well though.
  x

• 29/09/2008 @ 20:18 harmony said

  

  I don't tell people in my real life a tenth of what I tell wallers - strange isn't it? I like it because it is 24/7 and there is such a range of people prepared to say positive things to me that I'm hooked on it! Love Harmony

• 30/09/2008 @ 19:36 roze said

  

  There is a time when we all question what happens here - and yet i know in my happiest and saddest times - i turn to The Wall. I feel so very comfortable and trusting of my friends here. Which makes me think - freckles is it ok if i make you a friend? love roze

• 30/09/2008 @ 21:15 freckles said

  

  Roze, I would like very much to be your friend-thank you , Freckles xx

• 01/10/2008 @ 08:38 roze said

  

  Thank you too. love roze

• 01/10/2008 @ 14:55 blueangel said

  

  I think this place is so helpful, because people are distant from our situations and can give advice that is clear and supportive - over 10000 bricks - that's a lot of support!!