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• 12/09/2008 @ 07:00 cleo said

  

  Tell us why.

  The honesty of your brick is just great and I (for one) don't mind listening to a bit of anger.

• 12/09/2008 @ 10:23 ant said

  

  Me either - I seem to have said this word in bulk also today. thinking of you antxxx

• 12/09/2008 @ 11:17 Jomo said

  

  Bad day - ouch. Hope tomorrow is much better for ya -
  Jo

• 12/09/2008 @ 13:54 roze said

  

  I did a fuck brick one day - it really helped (apart from where i wrote fick rather than fuck)! Hoping it is getting better, Rxx

• 12/09/2008 @ 13:55 panther said

  

  Basically, I was having a great week. I actually thought, I was getting better. Hadn't smoked in a week, hadn't hurt myself in a week and a half. Then Thursday happened. Nothing in particular happened, I just felt like crap--anxious, depressed, angry, insignificant, scared. I FUCKING hate depression. I hate how it can just pull the rug out from under me. It would be one thing if under the rug was a hard floor for my butt crash onto, but instead it's a black hole of emptiness. I so want to get better, but my better lately is so precarious, and it never lasts very long. I actually thought perhaps I was climbing out of it. Silly me.

• 12/09/2008 @ 14:07 roze said

  

  Hey Panther, The thing to remember is that you were feeling better for some days. Try to hold on to that. The dark days are fucking tough I imagine - we never quite now when we are going to wake to the absence of internal light. I am here on and off today so keep talking if it is helpful. I know how it is to feel you are going up and then crash again. Be kind to yourself. love roze

• 12/09/2008 @ 14:11 panther said

  

  Hmmm...Fick Fick Fick! Yeah, just not the same satisfaction as yelling Fuck! Thanks roze. :)

• 13/09/2008 @ 01:53 cleo said

  

  Please hold on tight to something strong! I don't understand depression but I can imagine a black hole of emptiness and awful feelings of lacking control. And I don't think you're silly for being hopeful about getting better.