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• 15/08/2008 @ 21:49 ant said

  

  Hi eyeswideopen,

  You sound like you have a well developed sense of being in touch with your feelings. At the moment you see the negative in this - maybe there is a positive - something that you can admire and be happy about knowing your feelings so well? What would it be like if you were truly numb - an automoton without feelings. For everything there is a positive and a negative. I have taken anti depressants and I was never numb - it just took the edge off the strength of the feelings.

  How do you get over such strong feelings - love can really hurt - we don't generally think of love being a painful emotion but it is - even when that love is returned. Pain fades when we accept what has happened and ourselves for who we are. That peace you are looking for is inside of you - it won't come from outside - you have the answers to this - maybe like the rest of us it is finding your true self that is hard. ant:)

• 16/08/2008 @ 12:01 eyeswideopen said

  

  thanks ant. ur right i wouldnt swap this for being emotionally numb - i have been in that state before on previous anti-depressants and it was horrible. not being able to feel anything is worse than feeling things so strongly.

  and i know there are positives to be had from it...i guess i can appreciate the little things in life more, that others seem to take for granted. and when i meet someone kind i feel even more thankful because i feel that kindness so strongly.
  i guess i just have to learn how to deal with the flip side of strong emotions....im unlikely to find someone who loves me as much as i do them. and when other people share their pain, i feel it too. it can be tough sometimes, but i wouldnt swap it.
  i was just upset over my best friend when i made the brick. i just love him so much.