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Brick created on 22/07/2008 @ 05:13

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I'm afraid to tell you that I enjoyed the kiss because I'm not sure why I enjoyed it. Neither of us are gay, so I shouldn't feel that way.

I don't want to have a relationship with you. I don't want to have sex with you but I wouldn't mind kissing you again.

I won't say anything for lots of reasons. You are prettier than me. You are skinnier than me. It feels like you are a better person than me. I am nothing to look at.

I know we are friends and I don't want to crush that. I won't say anything about it because I don't want to ruin anything. I don't really want to say anything, I just want to kiss you and you to kiss me.

I think you might feel the same way, but I'm not sure. I look for opportunities to sort of find ourselves in the same spot as last time, but nothing seems to work.

How bad am I? I feel horrible.

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  • 22/07/2008 @ 08:02 Brown Bear said
    Brown Bear

    Hullo Chay. I haven't seen you here before. Don't feel horrible. I'm a very straight old git and I see nothing wrong with two beautiful girls enjoying an exciting, perhaps emotional moment. You will find that there a lots of girls here or who have been here with those same inclinations. They'll be here soon to tell you you are OK. Be happy, enjoy, be peaceful. BB

  • 22/07/2008 @ 12:04 roze said
    roze

    Hey chaychay

    Not seen you around before - welcome to Big White Wall! If you find someone you like to kiss and they are comfortable with it - then probably no real issue. I have kissed people i don't want sex with and had sex with people i don't really enjoy kissing. They do not have to be connected.

    I worry more about how you are putting yourself down in relationship to this other girl/woman. What do you like about yourself that is you - and not a comparison? Hell i wish i had legs like Kate Moss but i sure would not want her lifestyle!

    You are not bad - perhaps just in need of some beauty and empathy and intimacy in life. Take care, roze

  • 22/07/2008 @ 15:34 inspire8085 said
    inspire8085

    Hello ChayChay - Haven't seen you around here before. I hope you feel comfortable, everyone is a real help. Don't beat yourself up about this. You aren't a bad person for it - you just felt what you felt. I think roze is right, kissing doesn't quite need to be associated with sex, etc.

    Sending hugs your way ...

    Inspire xx

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