Perfect

prickly_pear

Brick created on 30/03/2008 @ 22:21

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I know pefect is a myth, i know you build yourself up for failure when your goal is perfection but getting however much closer makes me feel much better bout the now. This year (Since about february) i started obcessing about my weight. I've always been fat and after being told that time after time, one day something in my mind just clicked and i said "You dont have to be this way! You don't have to waste youre life being depressed and alone and FAT! You know that there are ways to change. Seeing as you can't change your mind (depression) at least you an change the box (body)! Since then it's been my every thought. What to eat, when can i eat, stop eating, all sorts of things. I know it's not healthy but it's so much better than cutting (i was gtting myelf into that), burning or just crying and being mad with the world. At least now i'm doing something for me. I can hardly wait till the day that i enter a room and turn heads! I have a new mindset towards food and life. I just guess i'm worried by it taking up so much in my life. But not everything can be good.

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31/03/2008 @ 11:21 Wolfie said

Hello pear - nice to see you around again. Not sure I like the sound of 'obsesing about my weight' though. Please take care that you know when to stop and focus much more on your overall physical health... Are you still talking to a professional? Have you talked to them about your weight?
((Big hug))
Wx
01/04/2008 @ 10:44 kaitty said

i say get better but get better in a healthy way. i agree with wolfie, don't obsess about your weight. i know what it feels like to "need" to be skinny but try just eating things that aren't as fattening. and no, im not talking about low fat crap because who are we fooling? MOST low fat stuff tastes horrible...might as well eat the stuff that tastes good even if it is a bit heavier =] anyways, i hope you find a GOOD and HEALTHY way to be perfect and in control =] always here for you, love kaitty =]