Well given the New Year I had some expectations of myself.  Things with my new ex are going "well".  My previous posts on here have helped clear my mind and we converse and it doesn't end up a shouting match.  Of course 8000 miles of distance helps with that.  On my job front is where I am suffering.  After all that had gone on with the divorce and drama that came along with it I had hoped getting back to work would have been easier, oops guess not.  I have made resolutions for the new year, and they are unfortunately on hold.  On top of this I have lost a bit of my direction. 

I am waiting on my security clearance so that I can get back to work as a government contractor.  My old company royally messed up the program when I left to be with my ex-wife.  I could blame the relationship and leaving work for her, but that isn't fair or true.  The fact that now my company is forced to jump through hoops to get everything fixed is a pain, and leaves me without a pay-check which I could really use.  While my family is supportive I can't help but feel I am mooching off of them. 

I know that things will work themselves out in time, and that I will get back to being stable and working again.  I just haven't felt very useful over the past week.