Okay I know those walls - sometimes, for me, they are called self protection and other times they are called the need for space to be alone. And yes there are times when we just want someone to break through. What are you wals called right now Kosmos? love roze

My walls, my shields, the barriers I built were to protect me, from hurtful people and to keep me from knowing how hurt I actually was. Worked both ways; keeping people out and me in. 

I'm sure, if someone came along who was pretty cluey and whom I could have trusted, was able to break through - or better yet, show me it was safe to make my way out of my own volition, then that would have been useful. But either I never met such a person, or could not see them as such. Being so caught up in hiding you have such a limited view; and the danger signs pop up just about everywhere, and making mistakes anyway, I don't much trust myself anymore.

Working on it, though; I feel I have to do that, 'cause once the walls start coming down, they're damn hard to re-build, IF truly possible at all - I'm not convinced, 'cause those I tried to re-build didn't have the same strength or thickness, and crumble much more easily.

-Mebenji