I am new to this site so not really sure how to express what im feeling at the moment.

 I feel bored and unmotivated, I just got back from a 6 week trip to South America and im not really sure whats next.  2 days before I got home my then girlfriend of 2 years decided to dump me via an email.  I felt kind of bitter and confussed, I mean, I was travelling on my own about to come home and then i get an email when I am 16,000 kms away from home and away from any family or friends I could talk to about this.  I dont think anyone deserves to be told like this and im not sure why she would do it in this manner.

 As a person, I feel i have changed a fair bit and I knew our relationship was not going to last, we have grown apart, she is totally career driven and does not have time for a relationship.  I have just visted a part of the world that has touched my heart in many ways and want to travel more and experience and see everything I can of this beautiful world.

 So here I am at work, 3 days in and im bored and cant concentrate.  im finding my old routine hard to follow, my house feels weird as it feels empty.  I know im ranting, I just feel lost.

thanks Roze,  you are right, I left for South America and knew deep down i would return alone.  I was there at the airport and when we hugged and I left for the plane, I cried and I think this is because I knew it was over and didnt want to accept that.

In some ways, its for the best.  I mean we would both have been miserable if we continued the relationship, she is 24 and just building up her career, im 32 and have gotten to where i want to be in the workplace and am now after life experiences.  Unless you have experienced an Egypt or a Boliva its hard to understand our wants for more travel.  Some would call it escapism and in some ways i guess it is but its what i need out of life now.  Maybe one day I will be lucky enough to find someone who wants the same thing, maybe not, I guess life goes on. 

Goodness your last post was really moving. On the relationship front it sounds like a young relationship in which you both changed and grew and just needed new things. That is a natural process. I guess the email may have been a bit of a payback for you 'leaving first' and also a way of hitting out at a man by someone who has not reconciled her relationship with her father. A lot of it may not be your stuff.

As for what travel brings - this has been so much my experience. I worked in many different places all over the world - and one of the most humbling experiences has alway s been - how those who have nothing (almost literally) have offered to share what they do have. I remember in Kerala in a shack by a river - a young man invited me in - and i was treated like royalty -  in  two room shack with no running water, bathroom, etc etc. Indeed - this need for consumption as a way of proving you are alive -  is very unsatisfying.

So what are your plans? Will you be able to do some work or something in these places that have touched your soul?