I said that in a post about an hour ago and I actually like the saying, don't know how I thought about it but it is so true. If it had one I wouldn't be typing this message with one hand instead of two.
Why is it that at times we all act out and behave like someone we are not ? Take me for instance, New Years eve I had quite a number of drinks and got an sms from my ex girlfriend asking if it would be alright to catch up for a drink. I thought to myself "Why not" im over her as far as love is concerned, ive moved on heck im even happy at times now so maybe some closure and seeing her in a friendship role would help me progress.
So there we were and it was good, we had some drinks and were around 2 other mutual friends and then we decided to move on and out of the city. It was here that the alcohol really started hitting me and im pretty sure I was well on my way to being drunk. So we decided to get a tram out of the city, all 4 of us.
Before I go on I have to say that i leave work at 5pm everyday and have to wrestle for my spot on the tram like every other city worker leaving to go home at night, ive often thought to myself, "man that would be pretty fun to just jump onto the tram connecter at the back of the tram and hold onto the rail and ride it in". Maybe its the kid in me who knows ? Anyway I decided new years that id give it a shot. Stupid I know, you don't need to tell me. So anyway there I am riding on the back of this tram and it started building speed up so I got a little worried and jumped off it at about 35 - 40 kms an hour. Well I landed pretty bad and now have a fractured hand. Not the wisest thing i have ever done. So im sitting here now wondering why I did this ? I work as a systems administrator, one of the things im most proud of is my ability to sit and analyse a situation / issue / problem and fix it. So why would i jump onto a tram and jump off at 32 years of age. Was I acting out in front of my ex girl friend, was it for attention, because that's not the person I am and it confuses me.
I think maybe in some ways its because I don't think she cares anymore, she says she wants to be friends but she never replies to my emails or sms messages. then decides out of the blue, I might catch up with him new years eve, acts like my best mate and leaves me more confused than I was beforehand. I think in some ways I need to move on from her and forget her, maybe I cant be friends with her. I am the type of person who will always reply to a message, I think its kind of rude not to but obviously she doesn't, she even went as far as to send me a face book message saying "hairline fracture of the wrist, good way to get someone's attention"
I think if life had a rewind button, I would have responded to her sms saying, maybe its not wise for us to catch up when we will both be consuming copious amounts of alcohol.

el mariachi, if life had a rewind button, there would be no need for sites like this one and we would not have met all these other lovely people.

 If you look at most of the things posted on here you will find them full of, if onlys and what ifs but that's life, we get one shot at it and then we're out of here; no second chance. So, with that in mind I've fairly recently set myself two goals in that respect;

1.  Leave the past where it is, it can't be changed but I can learn from it.

2.  Having learnt from it, try to make dammed sure that my children don't make the same mistakes that I did.

Regarding your actions, I think maybe the alcohol consumption might be a clue, we've all done it and will probably do so again (which kind of shoots down my 'learn from the past' mantra).

But seriously, you should just be glad thet you didn't make a complete fool of yourself with your ex and also that there wasn't a 30 ton truck following the tram.

Hope the hand gets better soon.